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Asleep in the arms of her father, Dorian Hill, always together...then, now, and forever.
Our daughter, SEANNA MARIE HILL
Steph and Seanna, always looking, always learning, always loving...always and forever.
b. November 14, 1991 - d. August 11, 2007
"THE STORY OF US"
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How Does Your Garden Grow?
Since my move to this new house and Seanna's subsequent death, my whole life has become a nerve-grinding mix of unbearable sameness and changes it is futile to resist. Obviously, grief is another word for "contrariness".
It is this contrariness I am exploring, this can't-be-true-but-is stuff of life, of being human. And it's not all sad, and it's not all bad. An awful lot of it is simply the the-way-it-is-ness of life and living and giving. And loving. Oh god, the loving. So much more of it than I really noticed before. A heck of a lot of little loving...small, tiny-wee bits of seemingly insignificant loving.
The loving of dogs and trees and bees (when they're not near) and the freckles on your own arms that you remember counting with your best friend when you were seven years old. It just goes on and on! So much small loving that is light and sits unnoticed, unburdensome in the lining of our old coats for years out of mind, but we tend only to count the big love that we carry with effort and reverence and jealous measure.
In my contrariness, while I counted the freckles on my arms, alone, I wondered how does my garden grow today ? It's a question I started to explore in The Temple of Solace, a place I often go for comfort, warmth, and understanding.
When I want to mull things over and really talk things out, I go to my own wordpress blog: Worth Writing As you'll see by the long stretches of time in between the dates of postings, I've been struck rather mute and unwilling to seek answers for some time since my daughter's death. Now is the time of my waking, but all waking is slow and comes in degrees. I suspect I have never before been fully awakened and know not what I am awakening to. Time will tell us both.
S. Hansen, April 2008
My daughter Seanna was not born to me, but is the daughter of my heart because she was raised by me, and to a significant degree raised me to full womanhood. Seanna incurred severe global brain damage as a result of surviving SIDS (Sudden Infant Death Syndrome) at age three months, and became highly autistic as a result of the brain damage. Another result of the brain damage was epilepsy that increased in severity until it claimed her life on August 11th, 2007.
No greater or more profound a blessing ever has been bestowed upon and then forsaken me. This piece of artwork is "THE STORY OF US"...
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"COURAGE"
"COURAGE" was created for the raffle to raise money for SIDS research (Sudden Infant Death Syndrome) opening April 11th, 2008
:COURAGE
recycled
children’s clothing, innumerable sequins,
thousands of stitches of cotton and ‘invisible’ poly
threads, very humble skills, and over one hundred
hours of determined patience.
:Why so long?
:COURAGE was hand-stitched by feel out of necessity because of my visual and fine motor skills impairments. (I'm essentially cross-eyed just enough to make sewing normally impossible, and have impaired hand-to-eye coordination as a result of epilepsy complications and anti-convulsant medication)
: Then why do it?
: Because COURAGE is the art of doing what you can with what you have in the fervent hope that it will be enough to make the difference between life and death.
The first sign of SIDS
is death.
Help keep the miracle of life from becoming a parent's nightmare.
For those of us who have buried a beloved child, I pray for the courage to carry on, and for those who struggle to uncover the secrets to keeping our children safe and well, I pray too for your courage to carry on.
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I AM GREATLY DISMAYED TO INFORM YOU THAT DUE TO UNFORSEEN CIRCUMSTANCES THE AUCTION TO RAISE MONEY FOR AUTISM ONTARIO and THE RAFFLE TO RAISE MONEY FOR SIDS RESEARCH HAS BEEN CANCELLED FOR THE PRESENT TIME.
IF ANYONE IS INTERESTED IN PURCHASING EITHER OF THESE ARTWORKS IN THE MEANTIME THE PROCEEDS OF THE SALE WILL GO DIRECTLY TO THEIR RESPECTIVE CHARITIES AS ORIGINALLY INTENDED. Contact for sale information.
Note: These artworks may be purchased for charity online through email money transfer and the artwork delivered, or by direct exchange.
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